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WHERE DO I BEGIN?! definitely one of the best days since i’ve been back. after chillin with jonathan last night we decided we’d grab chipotle today. i woke up around 12 cause of texts from sean already asking what we were doing today. so i texted back chipotle with jon. he goes when? i’m hungry now. i said idk i’m still in bed text him. lol. so i really had no idea when we were going out. so i went downstairs and ate some leftover sinigang. then jonathan calls me asking where i am.. i’m like.. home? apparently we decided on chipotle at 2. WHOOPS. lol. so i start getting ready and sean texts to come to dulce cause he’s already there.
we finally met up at chipotle around 215. i know we have our group of friends, i know we have great times with everyone.. but sometimes i just love being with just the two of them. everyone knows by now that they’re the ones that actually bought my ticket home, not even my parents. i am so incredibly blessed to have these two. i needed this trip. and they knew that. after chipotle we went back to dulce so me and jonathan could actually get drinks. we sat there for a bit, i actually ran into zach, and then we decided to go to levy’s house. the original plan was a girls’ day full of swimming and sunbathing then dinner. but the guys decided they would crash until we at least started swimming. they all ended up leaving to go play ball and then it was me, levy, talia, aly, megan, and gabe. of course we’d actually allow gabe to crash girls’ day lol. we were in the pool til about 7.. just talking and catching some sun. after that we all headed upstairs to change. i actually took a full on shower cause i don’t fucks with my hair like that. lol. but then wesley came and by that time gabe was gone. the 6 of us went to raising cane’s for dinner and harrison and jonathan met us there. then we went to dulce for talia. then we went to maggie moo’s for me and aly. faat. haha.
and then we all went back to levy’s. i think the original plan was to play just dance.. but instead we ended up watching part of shrek 4 and then smoked hookah outside next to the pool. we were out there til about midnight.. mainly me, jonathan, aly, shadi, levy, and wesley. just talkin and catching up. we talked about anything and everything.. from bitches/niggas we don’t like.. to war.. to politics.. education.. you name it. i sat there and realized how good life is. for all of us. we were sittin poolside on some of that outdoor furniture, outside levy’s amazing house, smoking one of the smooothest hookahs ever. and just talking. these are the summer nights i live for. spending all day with amazing people and then having such amazing nights to remember. it’s shit like that that reminds me of how happy i am.. how much i appreciate who i am, where i came from, and what i’ve been through.
officially kickin off the last 7 days before i head back to new york. part of me wants to go crazy, the other part wants to just appreciate anything and everything.
i woke up and chilled. i like to wake up slowly and start my day on my own terms. grabbed some spaghetti from downstairs, went upstairs to the gameroom and turned on the wii for netflix. i watched like a movie and a half of another one. i left the house by 4 to take my little sister to her swim meet. shit was deep lol. and it was hott. we got there and i set up my lil chair while she began warm ups. i ended up staying for two hours and watched 2 of her 5 races. i wanted to go home and shower cause i wasn’t even planning on staying that long. i was gonna drop her off then go to the gym. but then my dad said he wasn’t gonna come so i stayed with her. i made the 30 minute drive back home. chilled and showered. i left the house again around 8 and went to dulce. got the usual and then went back to her swim meet. while i was gone she only finished one more race so she still had two more to go. i stayed until the end of that and she ended up placing in all of races. we keep it B0$$ in the patriarca family. :)
after that we went home cause daddio cooked sinigang for dinner. i ate QUICK cause i was starving and got a call from buff saying he was finally on his way home from the airport. (note: my buff jonathan paid for half my ticket home with my other bff sean. and then we found out he was leaving to italy for half the time i was here) i ended up having to talk to some people on eboard, get some bidness out the way, and then i finally left for his house around 1130. even throughout the drive there i was talking to more people on eboard. i finally got there and we just straight talked. he was telling me all about his adventures and i was including little tidbits of my life. i left his place around 2 cause i was tired.
and of course, the best parts of going all the way to jonathan’s house is the drive home. it’s always late, i always have my slow jamz on. and life just doesn’t get better. ♥
and i actually hate regret. i hate wishing something didn’t happen because REGARDLESS, everything that happens contributes to who you are today. no matter what pain, bullshit, or stress you go through, every experience is unique in making you the person you are.
but damn, i was such an idiot. i could have avoided a lot. and i wouldn’t STILL be paying for the mistakes i made. and that’s probably why i have regret. because i’m still suffering the repercussions of certain decisions.
even with that bit of regret though, i’m still happy. i’m happy in a way that regret can’t even touch. like, i think i’ve annoyed myself with how happy i am. haha. nothing’s perfect. i go through bullshit everyday. and that’s when you know you’ve reached the best kind of happiness.
Eventually the fast text message responses will become slow. The long conversation will cut short. The attention they give you will become neglected. The comfort they give you will become something awkward. The time they have for you will become non existent. The feeling of being close to them will become distant.